Father…  I’m tired.
I’m tired of the struggle, the battle, the feelings of failure.
I confess to you that I have  little desire to seek you, little desire to pray with you, little desire to worship you.  Because I feel that before I have even begun, I have failed you. I am never enough for you, I can never measure up to your standards. Not necessarily in conduct, but in the position of my heart, in the desires of my soul, in my dependence on you.
I’m tired of feeling this way. I’m tired of always seeing myself as a failure before you. I’m tired of this wall between us. I’m tired of my mediocrity. I’m tired of this inward focus.

Jesus, I know you’ve already done so much for me. But will you please fix my eyes on you? For I cannot bear to look upon myself any longer. Please give me a revelation of you that will shake me to my core, that will transform my mind, that will encourage my heart. I need you…

All I ask is for a glimpse of you… that will rock my world.